All About Me
Hello. Welcome to my website.
If you are new here I want firstly say thank you for clicking onto my website and having a look around. I hope you have managed to find what you were looking for, if not drop me a message/ email and I can point you in the right direction.
But first, I would like to introduce myself. I’m Jessica Anne and I share my beyond motherhood and lifestyle journey.
I was born to love my children, be their mummy, but it’s what came next that required work! Who knew adulting was this hard beyond the wall!! (cheeky GOT ref)
As well as capturing my motherhood journey I share adulting life! Like food shops, organisation hacks, cleaning routines etc. Basically, the ups and downs of my daily lifestyle.
This sometimes including the deep stuff, more of the behind the scenes ‘me’ such as my anxiety, diet recovery, baby loss story and my craving for an creative outlet! This has become my therapy.
Sharing this is for me, but also for my children, for other mothers, for anyone who also reached the anticipated adulthood and felt confused.
Here I try and unravel and understand it and most importantly share it.
So here I am, connecting, sharing and finding my own beautifully boho way through.
I share what happens beyond becoming a Mummy
Want to know more? This is my story so far...
I grew up in a picturesque, rural village in Wiltshire, England.
Where I spent my childhood exploring the fields, building dens and playing for hours on end with my siblings.
We felt protected in our family bubble, with the yearly holiday to Devon being the most amazing adventure (which we still do, 29 years later). My childhood was idyllic, happy and fun. My parents inspired us, loved us and protected our childhood. Their parenting motivates my daily life, and aspirations for not only my future, but also my children’s future.
Furthermore, my teenage years were full of the roller coaster of the emotions of school. Influenced by friendship groups, boyfriends and suddenly being in a much larger world!
I completed school and progressed onto do a Diploma in Child Care level 3 at college. College was a time in my life where I explored this vast new world.
When I reflect on this time now, I remember the fun, laughter and carefree attitude I had.
Upon completing my Diploma, I went straight into being a live in Nanny.
To this day, I am forever grateful for the experiences and life skills this job gave me. It was more than a job for me. To be part of someone’s life for most of their formative years, is an incredible experience.
Being a Nanny, taught me how to plan, prioritise and manage a family and their home. I will always love the little boy I looked after and he will always be a big part of my life.
On the 5th April 2009 I met Craig. I know it’s a bit cliché to say, but I could never have known how much he would mean to me.
Controversially, we actually met online, and went on our first date that very night. As it turns out, we grew up only a few miles away from each other!
I am writing this now thinking of the love I have for this man, and trying to remember all the way back to the butterflies and excitement of dating. To the days of just ‘us’! The days out, holidays and endless conversation and laughter, we shared.
From day one, he treated me like a princess and shared my excitement in creating this life together. He was everything I needed and more.
Being a mummy was a dream come true for me.
Ever since I was a little girl I would practice with my dolls, pushing them, dressing them… I even remember pretending to breast-feed them.
Becoming a mummy however was much harder. We first got pregnant when I was aged 21, unfortunately our darling baby boy wasn’t meant for this world and I gave birth to him at 24 weeks. Great Sadness is easier to write about now, but at the time, (as you will understand) was soul destroying.
Maybe one day I’ll have the strength to write more on here, to talk to you about it in more detail. But I am not yet ready, my anxiety still has a hold of me and stops me.
Nonetheless time goes on, and like many, you learn to breath. As Albus Dumbledore said “happiness can be found in the darkest times if one only remembers to turn on the light”, and let the light in.
Going back to ‘normal’ was the hardest part.
When you dream of starting a family and going down a certain path, it’s devastating to be expected to go back to how you lived before.
Therefore, the decision was made to go back into education. I reluctantly left my Nanny job to work in a nursery, and I started my Early Years Education Degree at university.
Working with children is the most rewarding, positive, magical role, in which I aspired to take further.
In 2013, half way through my degree I got pregnant with Tommy.
My second pregnancy was filled with uncertainty and dread but, with lots of bedrest, my beautiful baby boy, Tommy was born.
He brought hope and life back into our hearts and filled our souls with love.
My loving, caring, clever little man, and just like that I was a Mummy and the life I had dared to dream became a reality.
Having a baby was beyond what I could have imagined!
As you Mummies will know, it’s an epic adventure. From the minute you hold your first baby, you feel like you’re having to ‘think on your feet’ the majority of the time. It’s a learning curve and an emotional roller coster from day one.
Additionally, I was still studying, and completed my Degree in Early Years Education 2015!
Being a Mummy as well as an Early Years Professional has made me more empathetic and considerate of the influence we have on these little ones.
It profoundly opened my eyes to parenthood and their education.
Then in September 2015 Craig and I got married. This man literally makes all my dreams come true and more!
The wedding was perfect. We got married in our local church and had the reception in a converted barn in the Gloucester countryside.
The sun shone, the food and drink flowed and everyone celebrated together.
As most brides say … I will never forget this day…it was perfect!
Our honeymoon was in Mauritius, ten days of marital bliss in beautiful luxury.
Where we ate, slept and enjoyed ourselves.
However, little did we know at the time, but there was actually three people on our honeymoon! I was pregnant.
Finally, in 2016 we were blessed with our little Emme and our hearts grew bigger than we could imagine.
She is such a caring, cuddly little lady, who we love more than words.
I am now a Mummy to two little ones, and my heart feels fit to burst with love!!!!
The children, and my husband mean everything to me, and have contributed to who I am today.
Life changes. Love grows and you change as a person through experiences. Being a mummy and a wife has taught me to value life and be positive about the future.
Since having children, I have changed as a person, my values shifted and my outlook altered. Everything I do is for them and this life we have together.
I created this brand ‘Jessica Anne’, based on my story and how I have learnt to find ‘myself’ since becoming a Mummy. I discuss how I strive for a more positive outlook in-order to feel happy, but I accept my anxiety and recognise when I need time to breath.
Through sharing this I found a love for providing support and advice for others.
The posts here on my website and videos on my Youtube channel support this further. Thats me! My story and how it is up to now.
We are constantly changing and growing as people and moving forward in time. Which is why I record my families story, to remember and share our reality and experiences with you all in an honest open way.